i think things are okay now (knock on wood)

So i found this quote and i just had to laugh. . . It explains exactly how i have felt these past few weeks. Now most of you know that i dont go to church at all, but i do say my prayers regularly. well lately i have been on my knees alot. I have been so stressed. Im right in the middle of buying a house and once again chaos hits. I lost my job at the first of this month and so i have worked my little fanny off trying to find another one so i wont lose the house. I FOUND ONE. it might not be everything i want, but it will do for now. Convergys here i come. I think i can handle it, at least until something else comes along and it will allow me to get my house and continue on with my master plan. :-) The closing date of my house got pushed back to October 15th tho due to a title issue, but that worked in my favor because of the whole job situation. So i finally feel like i am able to breathe again and that i have a little less on my plate than i did at the start of this month. Things happen for a reason, i just wish i could see why i had to go through this life lesson right now. lol. im sure someday it will be clear tho, and im just grateful to have found a job that will work with school and allow me to still make my dream of owning a house become a reality. Now hopefully everything else will go smoothly from here til october 15th. wish me luck. . .

Row Row Row Your Boat. . .

well my dad returned home from boise from a business trip on wednesday evening. when i stopped up at the parents to get my dog he asked me if i wanted to see a "pretty shocking picture"? so i said sure what the hell, not really thinkin anything of it. . . well i was completely caught off guard when he pulled up these pictures of him rafting down a river. HE NEVER DOES ANYTHING OUT DOORS!!! lol. WAY TO GO DAD! Im so proud of you for letting your adventurous side show. His boss had secretly planned this excursion for the end of their business trip and it was a surprise to all of them as well. My dad was a bit leery at first, but decided to go along with it and he said he was glad he did.

He is the one int he Yellow shirt.

I guess they had just passed a BIG rock in this one.

faster dad faster! you need to row faster!

Hang on for your life dad!

O crap here comes the water. . .

PADDLES UP!!!

HOUSE UPDATE!!!

okay so here it is. . . or at least this is what im planning to move into the middle of september provided nothing goes wrong. i finally found a house, YAY, and im so excited about it. its 4 beds 2 baths with a possibility of a 5th bedroom too. 1728 sq feet on .22 acres. the back yard is fully fenced for my dog, but i have a lot of work to do back there because it has been vacant for a while so there are probably a million weeds. no worries tho thats not too difficult to fix. it has a 1 car attached garage and my car will actually be able to be parked into it. i say this because right now at my current apt i do have a garage but my pool table air hockey and fooze ball table are in it. with this new house i have an upstairs living room and a downstairs family room. i plan to make the downstairs family room into the game room and that way my car will finally be able to be tucked in at night all safe and sound. :-) well i'll keep you all posted but im pretty sure its a done deal. i dont plan on backing out. lol. this week i have to start scraping paint so i can paint the exterior, its one of the FHA lender requirements for the loan to be approved. we are getting a cash allowance for the cost of paint so all we have to do is put in the time and labor. wish me luck, im thinkin it might be harder than i originally thought. lol.

ITS ON ITS WAY!!!

I ordered my laptop today!!! im so excited to finally have a computer again. the preliminary ship date is 8/14/2009 so it should be here by the 20th hopefully. these next 20 days are going to be the longest days of my life it feels like, but i cant wait to finally have a working computer. then i will be able to update this blog thing more regularly. only bad thing is now i have to figure out how to get all my stuff recovered from my old laptop to transfer to the new one. i know a couple people that might be willing to, so we'll see. well i will be back to blogging in 20 days. . . the countdown has begun!!!

Why. . .

does everything have to happen at once??? So here i am in the middle of trying to find a house and working on saving every bit of money i can to put towards it, and i now have had other things come up. First off i learn that i am going to have to have new back brakes and rotors which will be about $200. Second i find out that i need new tie rod ends on my two front wheels so that the car can be properly aligned, and both of those for parts and labor will cost total about $400. Third, this past sunday my computer decides to stop working. It just wont turn on, and through a couple of different calls and contacts i learned that it was the motherboard that had gone bad. This problem is by far the most expensive to fix at a total of about $500. Hell for that price you can get a new computer, but then i run into more problems. I have always been one to believe if your gonna buy something then buy what you want, and what i want (new computer wise) is like 1200. But i think its still worth it to just buy a new computer because mine is 6 years old and runs like a dinosaur!!! Im just tired of every thing happening at once and right when you dont need it to. grrrrrrrrrrrr

Starting From Scratch. . .

okay so, about this house thing. . . yeah. . . um. . . NO DEAL! i have withdrawn my offer on my house and am now going to be starting this whole looking-offering-accepting-buying process all over again. :-( First off i ran into issues with my down payment and other funding that i needed to come up with. My dad was getting a home equity line of credit and was going to gift me the money for what i needed and i would just pay him back. All was going as planned until last thursday he got told he had been Dis Approved after being approved only due to the fact that his house sits on 2 lots. . . WHAT THE HELL?!?! that doesnt make any sense at all because the increased lot size should only increase the value of the home. I immediately called my realtor and told her and the mortgage loan officer that i was working with about what had happened, and i said i couldnt go through with it cuz i now had no down payment and didnt know how long it ws going to take for the city to come out and remeasure their lot as 1 big lot for the line of credit to be able to go through. At that point i thought that the contract had been terminated based on my inability to meet my financial requirements. . . i guess i thought wrong (even though i told her i was not able to follow through with the purchase and the inspection and everything else had been cancelled at that time.) So yesterday when my dad got good news that he had been approved through a different financial institution for his home equity line of credit i called my realtor and asked what we had to do now and if i needed to put in another offer on the house. She said no and that i was still set to close on the 26th. . . (again) WHAT THE HELL??? i havent even given notice at my appartment and cant afford a mortgage payment AND a rent payment in the same month. Then i also found out that since rates had gone up and i had not been locked in at a lower rate that my house payment was now up to almost $850/mo. NO!!! I REFUSE!!! Also it was past the deadline to have the home inspection done and count towards the purchase of the house, and so if i still chose to have one done then no matter the outcome i would still be obligated to buy the house. this made me mad as i didnt know what the outcome would be and i didnt wanna get locked into a house if it had a lot of problems. so i withdrew my offer and im now starting from scratch :-(

New Little Sophie!!!

Here she is!!! this is Sophie, mady's new little pug. she is the cutest, most playful, spunkiest thing you will ever meet. in the top photo she was about 4 weeks old, and in the bottom photo about 3 weeks. i guess pug moms arent very good at taking care of their babies so mady got to take her home early. she is now off of the baby rice cereal and milk and eating soft puppy food. she is so funny just to watch when she plays cuz she will head butt things. she also likes to pounce when she is playing. i miss the puppy days, and seeing sophie only makes me want another puppy, but i have to wait til i get my house before i can get another dog. i would really like a lab or another german shepherd. o well we'll see what happens down the road. welcome to our family Sophie, you are helping to heal a broken spot in mady's heart, but zoiee will never be forgotten.

Mady and Tyesen headin to the prom!

i know im late gettn these pics up, but here they are. Tyesen and Mady went to highland's prom together, and at first they had a good time but the didnt end too well. :-( but everything is okay, it was just the group that they went with that caused stress for everyone. I also think that mady was still struggling with loosing her dog that week so she was a bit on edge.
it was really cute tho what mady told me what tyesen had said. "im sorry mady, i told you this was a rough draft and that i wasnt very good at these things. Next year will be better i promise!" he is really a great guy and i hope they are together forever. i already treat him like family and so does my mom and dad. I think he even considers himself as part of our family.

Mady's dress was almost exactly like mine from when i went to prom. she was so beautiful and i got to help her POOF her hair. lol. im sorry that you didnt have the night of your life mady, but dont worry there will be more proms for you to go to. :-) love you tons.

So much to catch ya'll up on. . .

Okay. . . Where to start. . . first off, mady had an okay time at prom. her night didnt go as planned but her and tyesen are still doing great. he's such a great guy and he treats her well, and im glad that they are there for one another. I took some pics and i will post them later tonight or hopefully by this weekend at the latest. Second off, Mady got a new little pug!!! She is so adorable, and her name is Sophie. Right now she is only 4 weeks old, but we had to take her because the momma pug wouldnt feed the pups anymore. The lady that was selling them had started feeding the puppies just baby formula and baby rice cereal, so we took the little thing and started feeding her the same stuff. She's doing really good, and again i have pics of her that i will get posted by this weekend at the latest. Lastly, I PUT AN OFFER IN ON A HOUSE!!!! :-) i am waiting to hear back on my offer, but as soon as i know if i have a house or not i will post it!!! well i think thats the short "sum up" of what has happened in the last 2 weeks, but if i've left something out i'll fill ya'll in on it later. :-)

IM PRE-APPROVED!!!

Alright, so about a week ago (on monday may 11th) i put in a mortgage pre approval application at the credit union where i work. They told me it would be about a week before i would hear anything due to a couple other applicants ahead of me . . . so thats cool no problem there. well yesterday i get to work and i still hadn't heard anything so i called the loan department to figure out the status. then i hear that there are even more people ahead of me and that it will be a least another week. Plus once i were to get pre approved and then find a house i get told it would take 45-60 days to close. EEEEEEKKK!!!! i dont have that kind of time by the time i find the house because my lease ends at the end of July. So i called up a couple of my friends to get some different names and numbers of new places to go. Long story short i ended up getting ahold of Advanced mortgage at around noon. . . and BAM! by 4pm i was pre approved for $100,000-$110,000. now really people, that wasnt that hard! lol. mostly i chose to go a different rout due to the amount of time it would take to close on the house once i found it. So now for the fun part!!! HOUSE SHOPPING! i will keep you all posted and let you know when i find my first dream home he he he. :-)

The absence of little foot steps :-(

Today was a very sad day! okay we'll back up a couple of days or weeks even maybe. For the past few weeks my sister's dog Zoiee has been not her usual self. It started out with what we thought was an injury to her neck. The vet put her on some pain meds and she seemed to get a little better. well after the pain meds ran out it was back to the "non usual" Zoiee. This past weekend it only got worse, and she wouldnt really interact too much with the other two dogs. Then monday and tuesday of this week she deteriorated even more. My mom finally took her to the vet, for yet the 3rd or 4th time since all this started, on wednesday. Well they wanted to keep her over night cuz she was extremely dehydrated and they were going to get her some fluids started. they thought she might have a bowl obstructions due to a shadowed area in her lower tummy/intestines. The plan was that she would spend the night to get up some strenght and then they would possibly do surgery. . . sadly she didnt make it through the night. :-( I got the phone call this morning from my sister who could barely catch her breath since she was crying so hard. I cant even begin to put myself in her place. I would literally die if anything happened to reina. . . so i dont know how she is going to get over the pain. Hopefully time will help heal her, but it will be a long time before her smile returns to normal. I was also a wreck after she told me what had happened. i was pretty close with zoiee too, and i dont know how reina is going to handle it cuz they were the best of buds. I found the following poem that i thought i would share:

Memories are golden

They say memories are golden.
Well, maybe that is true.
We never wanted memories.
We only wanted you.
A million times we needed you,
A million times we cried.
If love alone could have saved you,
You never would have died.
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we love you still.
In our hearts you hold a place
No one could ever fill.
If tears could build a stairway,
And hartache make a lane.
We'd walk the path to heaven,
And bring you home again.
Our family chain is broken,
And nothing seems the same.
But as god calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.

Zoiee, We love and miss you with all of our hearts. your memory will never be far from our thoughts every day! you were the spunkiest little thing i had ever met, and i am devistated that you are no longer hear with us. My only hope is that you are in a better place now, and that you are free to roam and jump with all of the other "Angel Dogs". We miss you a great deal down here, but we know you are no longer suffering and you are free of any pain you were in. please continue to be by mady's side and give her what comfort you can. we will always love you.

kiss the ground you walk on. . .

this was the theme for how mady got asked to prom. Tyesen had been contacting me all day saturday while mady and i were in utah. him and i were planning on how to get her home and how he would surprise her. Thats where i came into the plan. . . i had to let him know how far we were from poky so he could light the candles and hide in the closet. Then i had to get her into the house and downstairs to her room without her suspecting anything. . . i think it kinda worked. she said she thought somethin was up tho, but i dunno. lol

the lights were off in her room, and he had all the candles lit and this sign was sitting on her bed with a bowl of hershey's kisses sitting in front of it. the sign read, "i would kiss the ground you walk on if you would go to prom. . . " and then he stepped out of the closet and said "with me". it was so cute.

I absolutely adore him. he is such a sweet boy, and he is good to her. they are just good for each other. . . but i swear if he ever hurts her i will put him through a severe torture procedure!!! lol. hey what else is an older sister suppose to do. but i dont think he would ever do that.

he had the tea light candles placed everywhere in her room. it was so beautiful. the fun part was that i got to see the whole thing. when she opened her door she stopped dead in her tracks. i think it caught her by surprise a bit. who knows, she might have suspected somethin was up, but she didnt know what was up, and that was the fun part to watch. and there i stood with my camera in hand!!! im such a good sister! :-)

Her dress is really pretty too, in fact its almost exactly like mine! their prom is this saturday and once again, i will be there with my camera for when they take off to the dance! I NEED PICTURES! what can i say. and as soon as i have them i will post them. congrats tyesen and mady. you two will be the hottest couple out there!

Mady! Bust a Move would ya!?!?

okay so this past weekend i had the pleasure of taking my sister to her last dance competition for the season. Well of course i recorded all of them, but as you might know there are too many to upload here, so if you wanna check them out go to http://www.youtube.com/user/ReinaInABlueBug there you will be able to view all of her dance videos that i have uploaded. they will be in the play list titled "Mady's Dances" i know shocking huh? lol. i also took a couple of cute pictures of her and her and i together. here is one:

she is just so beautiful! she is becoming quite an amazing young woman, and i am so proud of her for that! she has no idea how much i look up to her. i love you mady and you did a wonderful job this past weekend in dance!

Im a "Fender-Bender"

Alright so today was not fun at all. well it started out okay. . . and by lunch time it was doomed to be a horrible day. I was stopped at a stop light behind a green GMC Sierra Pick up truck. i had just got done having one of my sneezing fits from my allergies when the light turned green. So i did what everyone usually does. . . start to roll with the slow flow of traffic as we pick up some speed. i dont even think i was going over 5-10 mph. well right after the light turned green, i looked down to get my inhaler because i couldnt breathe from all the sneezing i had been doing. i literally looked down for MAYBE two seconds, and when i looked back up the GMC was stopped dead in his tracks right in front of me. i slammed on my breaks but it was too late. He had a hitch and that is what cause these dinky dents in my front bumper. but apparently fiberglass is now stronger than metal because i bent his metal bumper down and all i got were these two little marks. the hitch didnt even go all the way through my bumper. Now i ask you, if i hit him hard enough to bend his bumper down, wouldnt you think that i would at least have a hole to show for it??? lol. well im greatful i dont, but it makes you kinda wonder if his bumper was already previously bent down. i also thought about this because the bugs ride low, and hitches (you would think) would hit my hood not my bumper, but it didnt in this case. well who knows, all i know is it was a sucky day. but at leas both of us were okay i guess. my sister texted me shortly after it happend and said, "hey jordyn be happy, at least you didnt total your car like i did a few weeks ago." LOL. she does have a point.

Curly hair with the new color

okay so i told you all i would put up a pic of the new hair with highlights after i brought the curls back. :-) here it is. i like it better curly anyways. dont get me wrong it is pretty when its straight, but it takes forever to straighten with the flat iron so i dont like to do that too much. but here it is. i really like it still. THANKS AGAIN SONIA for doing such a great job! :-)

"COOL" shot glasses!!!

these are "COOL" shot glasses. . . LITERALLY! i got these shot glass molds last night at Bed Bath and Beyond. You simply fill the blue bottoms with water, put on the green lids which poke down in the middle of the blue bottoms (cups) and disperse some of the water out to form the glass shape, stick in the freezer, and let freeze. when they are frozen you take them out and you have ICE SHOT GLASSES! they are the coolest things! im so excited to use them, now who wants to party???? :-) im serious, im gonna have a party and use these things. i think i have made like 2 batches of 24 so far. . . LOL i know im goin over board, but i just cant get over how neat they are. he he he. so as soon as school is out i will think of a weekend and let everyone know for a PARTY AT JORDYN'S!!! we can drink and play the wii :-) kinda dangerous, but you know me, i live on the edge!

NEW HAIR COLOR!

So last night i decided i needed to get my highlights put back in my hair. . . So i called up my friend sonia who is going to school at the School of Hairstyling and asked her when i could make an appointment. She told me to just stop in today at 10am and she would do them. . . SO I DID! Then after it was done i came home and straightened it with my flat iron so that you could see the color really well. Now dont anyone worry, the curls will come back when i wet it down. I only straighten my hair once every 3 months just for kicks. Well let me know what you think, I LOVE IT! Thanks Sonia! You did an AWESOME job!

Totalled Toyota

Okay so here are the pictures of mady's totalled toyota! It wasnt as bad as i had pictured it in my head, but it is still REALLY bad! Luckily both girls were wearing their seat belts and that is probably why they are both still alive.

both air bags deployed wich was good, but the windshield was shattered. thank goodness that the front windshield stayed roughly (in pieces) together tho, but the rest of the windows were shattered out pretty much.

This is where we think that mady hit her head to make that huge gash that she had. you can see the blood on the silver plastic right above the vent. man her head must be fragile for it not to be strong enough to withstand plastic. lol. j/k.
After seeing these photos i was deffinately shocked! this just makes this situation that much more of a miracle that we have my sister still with us today. im so greatful to have her in my life still, and forever. I LOVE YOU MADY!

Me . . . Irritated . . . Again!

Okay. . . So. . . im angry again!!! Or i guess angry is a pretty strong word, you could say i was irritated again. . . ya that sounds better. So my parents got in a big blow up about Mady's new car. Ya, i know, shocker huh??? My dad feels like my mother rushed into things and he was upset that she didnt even wait for the totaled car to be paid off by the insurance before she went out and bought a new one. . . THATS UNDERSTANDABLE FOR HIM TO BE MAD ABOUT THAT, its crazy to do something like that. But yet she still doesnt see what she did wrong. WOW, THATS UNBELIEVABLE! So my mom had called me to tell me all this, and i decided to ask her if Mady had a job yet? . . . No Mady doesnt have a job yet. hmmmm. . . there's something wrong with this picture. But my mother's supporting argument to that answer is that "Mady is tired with dance and school". And then she told me that i didnt have too much room to talk because she helps me A LITTLE bit with my rent each month. Okay so i can see her point with that. Yes, im guilty of her helping me, but she's the one that wouldnt let me move so that i wouldnt have to have her help. She also told me that she would never hold that over my head. . . well i guess she lied. I am just irritated because my mom has always told us (mady and i) that she didnt want to favor one over the other. . . well guess what. . . SHE IS! I had my car paid off 1 month before my mother ever started helping me with my rent, and I get exhausted with work and school. But i was never allowed, nor would i have wanted to or felt right being allowed to, let my parents pay for stuff and me sit back with no job and rest because i was too tired to work to pay for my own car. Like i said in a previous post i wasnt even allowed to think about purchasing a car until i had a full time job, and i've kept one for 7 years straight now. It just irritates me (1) that my mother still doesnt know how her approach to solving this problem was wrong, and (2) that mady is now probably gonna be allowed to have this new car and not be responsible for the payments. All i know is im gonna either get a second job, put my stuff in storage and live in my car, or build me a cardboard box to live in, but im not gonna let my mother pay anymore of my rent cuz i wont have that held over my head!

Mady's New Ride!

So here it is. This is mady's new car. Its an 09 (i think) Mitsubishi Lancer. Now i know i was kinda heated about it earlier, but i am going to not worry so much about it now. I have realized its not my problem to deal with, and everything is okay other than the fact that she doesnt have a job. But im going to say my prayers for her and hope that everything works out like it should. i dont want this to blow up in her face, and i dont want her to fail, so i hope that everything falls into place and that she is able to succeed with her car as a responsibility. i love my sister more than anything and i only wish her the best with everything. CONGRATS ON THE NEW CAR MADY!!! o and thanks for lettin me drive it before mom or dad!!! he he he.

Harry Potter Sighting!!!

Okay, so as most of you know my sister Mady totaled her car a couple weekends back. well these pics were taken about 5 days after the accident. her stitches had been taken out, but she still had her staples in her head. i told her she looked like harry potter. ha ha ha. she says her name is Harry Pot-head. which i dont know how that can be true because she has never smoked pot in her life. She's just a goof ball. But like i've said many times, im just greatful we still have her here with us. I LOVE YOU MADY!!!

MADY'S DANCE!!!

Okay, so this post is from a few weeks back but i just now uploaded the stuff from my camera. A few weekends back my sister mady had a dance competition. She had 5 dances that she had to perform in the competition and i picked my favorite 2 to put up here. But she did absolutely wonderful on all of them. This first one is called the Flashlight Dance. In it, all of the dancers started out hiding in the bleachers and then when the music started they turned their flashlights on and came down onto the floor. it was so cool. i dont know how to explain to you where she is on this one cuz they all have thier hoods or hats on and i usually find her by her hair. i know she came from the lower left corner, and she usually ends up in the front cuz Gina thinks she's one of the best dancers in the class. . . AND SHE'S RIGHT!!! :-)

The next dance was their last performance. The did such a good job on all of their performances but this one is the one i liked most! I think this dance is called Bounce just because thats the first song in the performance. She is the one laying on the ground directly to the left of the guy standing up right in the front and she lands on the center gym floor line after the roll over in the very beginning of the song.

My sister is so good at dancing and she truly enjoys it. I hope she never quits dancing because its like her outlet. Its what she loves to do and it gives her a break from everything stressful in her life. I quit my dance class that i was taking. I didnt do it because i didnt like it, i did it because it felt like 6th grade all over agian where i was the outcast of the group. I dont think it had any thing to do with the other girls, i think it was my fault for not having enough self esteem for me to think i was good enough to do it. Ya' see, all the other girls were skinny, and they didnt "giggle" (lol) when they danced. Me on the other hand didnt like the way i looked when i would be dancing. Hell i dont like the way i look when im not dancing. And its because of this fact that i couldnt allow my self to let loose and just enjoy what i was being a part of and enjoy the dancing like i use to back when i was in cheerleading. Its my own fault, and hopefully i can loose some weight and try it again because i would give anything do be able to do what mady does. She is just so talented and i look up to her more than she will ever know.

I CANT FREAKIN BELIEVE IT!!!

Okay . . . let me set the scene for you'all. . . Its a clouded over evening, and im getting out of class. I had texted my sister asking her if she wanted to come over to my house and hang out for the evening. She replied with a yes, but told me she would need a ride (due to her NOT having a car, or so i thought, since she had totaled hers a week and half earlier!!!). So i graciously offered to go pick her up so that we could hang out. Here's where the plot thickens. . . DUN DUN DUN! As i pull into my parents driveway, i notice a shiny silver thing in the distance. It was way at the end, almost as if (hopefully) no one would really notice it. Well, I DID! As i get closer i notice it has 4 round tires and a spoiler. . . (at this point i was thinking. . . WHAT THE F***!?!?!) Yep, much to my amazement, there sits a Mitsubishi Lancer, New as can be. I park my car angerly, turn off my engine, and take a loooooong deeeeep breath! I try to calm myself before i exit my vehicle and approch the entrance of my parents house. I try to think of ways that this situation would be justified so that i wouldnt be so shocked, upset, and confused at what my eyes had just seen. As i enter the house, i dont mention the shiny new automobile that is parked outside. . . until i cant take it anymore. I then ask my mother if that is Mady's new car. She states that it is, and that they got a good deal with zero percent financing (which makes it all that much better and okay, right??? . . . NO!!!). Well as hard as it was i bit my tongue because its not my credit that they are screwin with, its theirs. Why do i say this? Well maybe its the fact that my sister, Mady, HAS NO JOB RIGHT NOW!!! Now, if im wrong, someone PLEASE correct me, but how on earth does anyone buy a car with no job!?!?! Please, dont get me wrong, im not mad or jealous that she has another new car, im shocked that she has another new car and she doesnt even have a way to pay for it! That is not what responsibility is! When i talked to Mady she said her car payment wasnt due for 45 days and that she would find a job within the next couple of weeks. . . Well you tell me. . . Is a job a garaunteed find in today's economy??? Hmmm. . . that's a tough one, but im gonna go with probably not. I remember a day when my mom use to be the one teaching us kids that it wasnt a good idea to jump right into things. She use to tell us that if things were not certain, you shouldnt commit yourself to something. Hell, our insurance hasnt even processed the claim for the total loss on her toyota yet! Mady cant even insure the Lancer until the insurance files the claim and its processed and the toyota is taken off of the insurance. I guess im just shocked cuz when i went shoppin for my car when i was sixteen, i wasnt even allowed to entertain the thought of buying a car unless i had a job! I dunno what to think about all of it, all i know is that im a bit irritated at the whole situation and i needed to vent! So there, I VENTED!!!

TCD episode strikes!!!

well i have been sick since friday, and have had no voice since saturday morning. :-( it really sucks. my friend Ty at work thinks i have TCD, or Teller Consuming Disease. Its possible since i AM a teller and all. lol. but whatever i have it isnt fun. another girl at work is also sick, and she probably has TCD also. I still think "TCD" is something Ty made up. . . but shhhhh we wont tell him i said that. this morning i got up and ready for work, went to work and then they sent me home at 11am cuz they thought i looked like i was dying. ha ha ha. well i guess i feel like im dying, but i hated to call in sick two days in a row. so ya, now im at home with nothing to do and sicker than a dog. O, and im looking for suggestions on ways to cut off my nose so that i can stop sneezing. . . any ideas welcome! i cant stop sneezing or coughing and they are both driving me insane, not to mention making my throat sore. well ya so that is how my weekend went! hope yours was better.

dont take life for granted. . .

okay so today was not a good day by any means. my lil sister, mady, headed out this morning with her friend alana to pick up one of mady's friends from boise. little did they know what was about to happen. Mady totalled her '07 toyota matrix and could have been hurt alot worse than what she was. the scarey thing is that we could've lost her today if it wasnt for the lord watching out for her. i guess she dosed off at the wheel and when she looked up all she saw was the back of a truck right in front of her and she slammed on the brakes and tried to swerve out of the way. but in doing so the car started to spin out of control and before they new it all the windows were blown out and mady had a huge gash in her forehead. she got taken to a hospital in Mt Home a little outside of boise where they had to stitch and staple her back up. She's much braver than i would have been, im a pansy when it comes to these things.

the above picture is what her cut looked like before they stitched it up. she said that you could see clear through to her skull. and the one below is what it looked like after the dr had put in the staples and stitched her forehead back up.

its times like these that give you a shock and make you think how quickly life can change in the blink of an eye. i dont know what i would have done if i would have lost her today. she is my best friend and i dont think i could live without her. cars can be replaced but sisters cant! mady is not the easiest child due to the fact that she usually thinks she is right and has a hard time taking advise from other people. she likes to do things her way most of the time. this is why when my mom told her she thought it was a bad idea for her to drive all the way to boise alone, without the parents, mady got mad and said she was gonna do it anyway and that there was no need to worry she knew what she was doing. (my mom is still recovering from knee and neck surgery and trying to deal with her mother, our grandmother, who just fell this past week and broke her arm and had to have surgery as well. that is why my mom let mady convince her she was okay to go alone.) what happened today will probably wake her up a bit to the fact that no one knows everthing and she does need to be a bit more careful and aware of how much learning she still has to do in life. this does however make me very sad to think that this is the way she has to learn this lesson. she has worked hard for the past year for that car and was following exactly in my footsteps just as i did when i bought a brand new car at the age of 16. it makes me sick to think that she might not have a new car for a while. its a privillage that alot of people never get to experience. and she is alot like me, when she is stressed her car was her outlet. she would go driving just to get away from the chaos at home. it might be a while before she can get back out there behind the wheel of another "dream car" for herself. but the most important thing is that we still have mady!!! there will always be other cars, but mady is a once in a lifetime gift to this family and i am so greatful to heavenly father for letting her stay with us. her friend alana was hardly even touched which is even more incredible. thank heavens for angels watching down on us.

WII (gonna be) FIT!!!

I GOT A WII FIT FOR MY BIRTHDAY!!! and it told me i was Obese! LOL. well i guess i kinda am. So i am gonna work really hard not to be! Its really fun to work out on tho. i have learned that my center of balance is slightly off, which could be the reason why my back hurts. Im getting really good at Hula-Hooping tho! he he he. its a fun game on the Wii fit game that burns calories. It also has Yoga, Strength training games, and other fitness programs. Its nice cuz it doesnt really feel like your workin out but you are. and time flies by when you are doing it. Before i know it i have worked out for like an hour!!!

o and i guess i should give you all an update on our 30lbs in 3 months plan. . . the first week i dropped 2lbs, YAY, but the second week i didnt loose any. So im steppin up my game!!! im gonna work out more and try to go on regular walks with the Pooch! im sure she'll love that too. but all the other contestants at work are doing good too. they have all either dropped weight or stayed the same. and the way i see it, is if you aren't gaining your doing pretty good. :-) keep up the good work everyone! We can do this, WE WILL DO THIS!

NEW PLAN!!!

okay so many of you know that i was planning on buying a bullet bike this spring!!! well. . . i dunno if that plan is gonna unfold to well just yet. ya'see i have had some issues come up that might effect that purchase. first, i had to enroll in benefits through my work this past october of 2008 due to the fact that i get kicked off my parents insurance as of march 18th (my 23rd b-day). this takes an average of 50 bucks out of each paycheck. second, my job put a freeze on raises this year due to the economy. they will re-evaluate everything at the end of the year, and if they can afford to give everyone a raise then, they will. and third, rates are awesome if you are lookin at buying a house, which i am. and also if you buy a house this year you get 10 % (up to 8,000 dollars) back on your taxes next year. SO HER'S MY NEW PLAN: i think i will hold off on the bullet bike until i get that 8,000 dollars next year, and i WILL buy a house this summer. that way i will probably not have to finance the bike and i will have a house and all my other debt will be paid off by that time. so really the only debt i will have when i buy the bike will be the house. :-) i think this is just the answer i have been looking for and it feels like it is the right solution to my dilemma of how to get both tasks accomplished and be the safest i can be financially. let me know what you'all think!

Im gonna be HOT!!!

okay so here's the plan. . . 30LBS IN THREE MONTHS!!! the girls, and ty, at work and i are gonna loose a set amount of weight by the end of may. Jennie and i are doing 30lbs each, i think ty is too, and then melissa and kathy are doing 15lbs each. we started last sunday (which was march first) and we weighed in on the following monday. we will weight in each monday, and record how much we have lost each week. at the end there will be a small cash reward for the person who gets closest to their goal. SO. . . here's the good news. . . as of today i have lost 3lbs. IM SO EXCITED!!! that means im right on track. :-) im so excited to have girls like these (and one guy) in my life to adventure out on this journey with. its hard to loose weight alone, so i think this will deffinately help me by having a group to do it with.

there are many reasons why i want to do this. 1) for my health. i want to be a healthier person who loves what she looks like and feels confident about ALL of herself. 2) someday, if i get married and have kids, i dont want people to look at me and wonder if im pregnant or if im just fat. i want to have a cute pregnant lady belly if i ever have kids. 3) i wanna be HOT! HOT! HOT! im buying a bullet bike soon (maybe not til summer now) but when i do get it i dont want to be the "fat chick with a bike" i wanna be the "babe with a bike" lol. 4) when my sister gets married in the future i dont wanna be the fat maid of honor. i wanna look AND feel good being her maid of honor. and 5) my family is probably gonna go on one of our last family vacations this coming december to florida. i wanna be able to to wear a bathing suit and look good in one. and i wanna be able to wear shorts and tanks and not worry about how fat my legs or arms look. SO THIS IS IT EVERYONE! its NOW or NEVER! and now is as good as time as any. i cant continue to keep putting it off til the next day. IM DOING IT NOW. I'VE MADE A DECISION, IM COMMITTED, AND I WILL SUCCEED! that is my promise to myself. so here's to us! we are gonna do it together and make it happen.

AAAGGGHHHHHHHH. . . CHEMISTRY!!!!!

okay so here goes guys. . . i am about ready to head off to take my chemistry mid term. . . I FEEL SO UNPREPARED for it. im way nervous and i hate this feeling. this subject went from being one i started out understanding to now, 4 chapters later, KNOW NOTHING. i dont know what the hell im gonna do. maybe i will be granted a superpower for guessing the correct answer on all of the questions, ya think? naaaaa, that would never happen. and im sure it doesnt help that im blogging right now instead of studying. lol. but it got to the point where my mind just needed a 15 minute break from molicules, dot structures, chemical mixtures, compounds, and everything else that i dont understand now. i think if i fail this mid term i am going to withdraw from the class instead of getting an F on my transcript and having to re-take the class just to get that grade off. i dont think i even need the class anymore, because i have pretty much decided that i am not gonna go into the medical field. i dont know what i want to be when i grow up, but i dont think the medical field is for me. so wish me luck and maybe if i get a C on the test i will keep pluggin along so that incase i do decide to do something medical i will have the class already done. who knows. . .

DYSON UPDATE!!!

okay so i dont think i have ever vacuumed this much in my entire life! ha ha ha. man i love that sucker upper machine. it picks up everthing. but i had a bit of an accident today. . . i caught the edge of one of my rugs in my kitchen and it litterally skinned the rubber backing off of the corner of the rug. HA HA HA that just goes to show you how powerful these vacuums really are! my rug is okay. . . for now. im just so amazed at how much dust and dirt i pick up. it makes me sick! well just thought i'd share my silly miss-hap tonight. lol

SUPERNATURAL

okay so i recently got into watching a tv show called supernatural. i think its been on for a couple of years but an old friend introduced me to it a little while ago. it is really good. and the characters Dean (jensen ackles) and Sam (jared padelacki) are really good actors and not to mention FINE AS HELL!!! lol. but it is a really good intense action filled show with some humor thrown in. its on thursday nights at 8pm on the CW and you all should check it out.

Dyson Dyson Dyson

okay so i have been meaning to write about this for like a week now, but last tuesday my friend jen let me borrow her new dyson vacuum. O MY GOODNESS!!!! i was shocked at the amount of crap it picked up. i vacuumed my living room dining room and hallway and had to empty the canister NINE TIMES!!! can you believe that?? i felt so dirty knowing what i had just picked up out of my carpet. but for the first time in a long time i was able to vacuum my carpet without breaking out into a sneezing attack. it was so nice. i will deffinately be buying me one of these marvelous sucker uppers.

What do you do. . .

. . . when you just cant do it anymore? This last week my family had a big come apart. My little sister got caught in a bunch of lies, my mom and dad fought like you wouldnt believe, and I kinda got caught in the middle of it. For the first time, I saw a side of my dad that I was not too pleased with. He was very angry and hostile when he got home from a long week in new york on business. But on the other hand he kinda had a right to be. The house was a mess and nothing was picked up, the dishes werent done (in fact they were overflowing) and my sister handn't tried to help with anything. But some of his words spoken and actions made probably didnt help the situation any. I now know what my sister goes thru with him. He puts her down a lot and it breaks my heart cuz no one needs to go thru that. You cant expect a child to succeed with no support, and the childs actions will only reflect the negativity that is being put onto them. But how do you turn this around? When the parent is being hurtful, and the child wont listen. . . who makes the first move? The child has no respect for the parent in this case, but neither does the parent for the child. My mom always asks me what I think that they could do better to improve the situation in their household, but I just dont know what to say anymore, and I cant take the stress anymore from wanting to fix things but not being able to. Okay well I just had to get that off my chest and vent a bit.

i hate being a girl

there is too much drama! i hate it. i hate how girls turn everything upside down and sideways and backwards and everywhich way other than the right way. Why over react when you can just talk like about it with each other like grown ups? why do all girls have to go off and just assume that someone is mad at them, when really its just a simple miss-communication that could be solve if they would talk about it and solve the problem at hand from the beginning?

sometimes i wish girls would just fight like guys. throw a couple of punches and then everything is fine and dandy again. life is too short to jump to conclusions when you dont know the whole story. I CANT READ MINDS YOU KNOW! you have to tell me what i did wrong and then i will try to do better in the future. you cant just avoid the situation, because that just makes it worse. okay so that is my venting session. . . can i not be a girl now! PLEASE?!?! i dont wanna do it anymore if this is how it is gonna be for the rest of my life.

i have done nothing. . .

ALL FREAKIN WEEKEND!!! and it was so great. it has been one of those L...A...Z...Y weekends where you just lay around all weekend and do nothing. and the best part was that i didnt have to work or go to class today (which is monday by the way) so it was actually an EXTENDED lazy weekend which is even better. So all i've done is stayed on my chouch and watched some dvd's of a tv series that i just got into. my friend amanda let me borrow her ANGEL series dvd's and i only have one more disc to go before im done. its a really good show tho. :-) its got action, humor, and some romance here and there, which is everything i like! Waaahooooooo. and after im done with that i am going to start watching her dvd's of the tv series SUPERNATURAL. its all her fault that i am into all of this ghostly, vampire, supernatural shows. lol. but i have to hand it to her, they are all really good.

A Car Named Murphy

today i took a trip down to our local midas shop. . .

i had previously called them to get an estimate on the cost of new brakes. they told me that they usually run about 90-120 depending on the car. so when i headed down there today it never really crossed my mind to think that i would end up paying OVER 240 BUCKS!!!

First: they tell me i need new pads, which i already knew. . . and of course the pads for my car are the ones that cost the most.

Total: about 120. . . and counting apparently. . .

Second: they tell me i need to have my rotors resurfaced. so i ask how much that will cost. they tell me about 50 total for both. so i decide to go ahead and do it cuz they need to be done and i can probably afford it.

New total: about 175. . . and still counting apparently. . .

so im sitting there in the waiting room and the guy comes through the service door with a not so good look on his face. he asks me if i have ever had a wreck with the vehicle in the front end??? so i tell him that back in 2003 i had a MINOR fender bender when i was in highschool. he then says that the bolts (aka Caliper Pins) on the drivers side were stripped (which meant i needed new ones) and he was just wondering if it might have been from a wreck or something. but my brakes have been replaced since then so i know it wasnt that. his next words were to tell me that the bracket that holds the caliper (which is the thing that holds the brake pads) was also bent a bit, and that it might need to be replaced in the future. he also says that he has had to order the pins and that they were on their way over to the shop, but that they were a slightly bigger pin and he was going to have to shave them down and re-thread the new ones to fit inside the wholes that they also had to re-thread. so i ask him how much all that, the new pins and re-threading, is going to cost. he says that the pins are EACH 40 DOLLARS!!! but without them he cant put my car back together due to the old ones being damaged when they were put in the last time, this causing them to be ruined when he took them out.

OH HOW LOVELY, JUST FREAKIN LOVELY!!!

New total: about 235 dollars, PLUS TAX!!!

and 245 dollars later my car is fixed, sorta. they want me to bring it back in 2 weeks so that they can check the pins to make sure the bigger ones are working and not coming loose.

i have realized today that my car's name must be Murphy!!! its like Murphy's law: Whatever can happen WILL happen. nothing is ever easy with my bug. c'mon people, cant i catch a break for once!?! i love my car but this one thing after another, or one thing leading to another
is really getting old, and im getting sick of it.

o, and did i mention?, the back brakes will need to be done this summer.
WHOOOOP DEEEE FREAKIN DOOOO!!!!!!!

As MY life turns. . .

Okay so this past month has been really busy. My mom had surgery on her knee on December 23rd and got out of the hospital on Christmas day. Between all that and getting ready for school to start up again in mid January I didn't have a lot of time to get on here and up date this thing. But any-whoo, now school is back in and im pluggin away at the studies. Im taking College Algebra and Psychology on campus, and then im taking an online Chemistry class. I feel like I am always doing homework for one class or another. I think that chemistry will be my most difficult class this semester, but I did get an A on the first test over the first chapter :-) Next week I have 3 tests, one in each class. Its gonna be a rough week which means the Agenda for the weekend will be: STUDY STUDY STUDY!!! o damn the superbowl is this weekend. Well shoot, I guess I wont get as much studying done as I should. He he he. Reina is doing good still. Her eye has completely healed and you cant even see where the stitches were. :-) she's such a good girl, I LOVE HER SO MUCH!!! well this is just a little update for now, I will try to post more regularly (key word is TRY).